The spring semester is over. The summer session is half way over. Soon it will be time to send our first daughter, Sanjana, to kindergarten. Where did the time go? I still remember the day she was born. I was in labor for 22 1/2 hours then finally had an emergency c section. Everyone says the love you have for your first child is different than other children you may have. At first, I did not believe it but now I see what they mean. It certainly does not mean that I love my second daughter less than the first. The first child gives you the honor to become a mother. The little bundle of joy who relies solely on you for everything. All of the sudden you have such an important job. A Mother.
Fast forward to present, Sanjana is closing in on her first day of kindergarten. The first day of kindergarten does not sneak up on you. In fact, I have been imaging it for quite sometime now. Yet, sometimes I still remember looking at those blurry ultrasound pictures. So much to do. School supply lists. Uniforms. Backpack. Lunchbox. Health forms. Extra curricular activities. Meeting the teacher. Dropping her off in a new school with scary 5th graders. Yikes!
Sanjana has always done well in school. She started talking at the age of 18 months. She was pointing to things around 2 years of age. Now, she is 5 and able to read and comprehend stories. Whaaat?! Yeah, smarty pants! I know she will do well wherever she will go. She has been in a nurturing and sheltered environment all her life and now it’s time for me to let her go a little bit. Do the things kids do without having me constantly telling her, “get off or else you will fall”, “watch out” “don’t do that again”, “go slow!” I like to be on the err side of caution.
As the days get closer and closer, I’m a little bit sad and a little bit excited. I don’t know how she will be. New friends. New teachers. New building. Everything will be new. However, somethings will always remain the same. I will pack her lunch. I will get her ready. I will drop her. My favorite part of the day, when I finally pick her up from school and she runs to me and hugs me so tightly and says, ” I really missed you mommy!” I’m instantly elated!